waiting for an absolution that will never come

So hi there. I got moved, again. Autumn & I are settling in to the new house, and we love it. It is brand new, the two houses next to us are not even complete yet. Once I get all the boxes emptied and the pictures hung I will post some pics.

This past Friday was (well, wasn't) our 20th anniversary. Yes, twenty years. Platinum. I came home from work, half expecting him to ask for dinner, or even remark the date. Nope, not a word. Hannah had left to the movies, Autumn was on a date, so I decided to head out myself. I couldn't help but think, had he said something, something he wouldn't be spending the night, like he will probably spend the rest of his life; alone. Somewhere deep down inside, I still think he will say something. In my eyes, I have conceded; twice. Each time squashed over his idiotic way of thinking - money - discipline - etc.

I spent the evening with Corie, then headed home as I had to work the next day and then move. The move started Saturday afternoon. By the time I got off work, our recruited friends were beat and decided to call it a night. My bed was still over at my house, but I wasn't going to complain. So, I woke up Sunday at my house. No big deal, right?

Well, anyone on the planet knows what Sunday was. The biggest holiday next to Christmas; Mother's Day. I slept late, very late (my insomnia is back with a vengeance). When I woke up, about 11:30, Hannah gave me a card and a 50.00 gift card to Bath & Body Works. Now, I know Larry bought it, so I was appreciative. I also appreciate the fact that even though I don't shop there, I could find something I would like.

Then, Hannah goes up to shower, comes down all dressed, pressed and ready. I asked her where she was going. Her reply? "Out to eat with Stephanie & her Mom".







Yeah, that was my reaction too. I absolutely could not believe it. And here is the fun part, Larry gave her the money, in front of me. While I was standing right there, in the living room. She then ran out the door yelling "bye Mom".

I cried for the rest of the day while moving what was left out of my house, for good. And I'm still not done. I am taking everything I want out of that house. I can not believe I stayed for twenty years in that kind of world.

I heard Rosie say a relationship is like a garden. One is the gardener & one is the flower. I am the gardener, except my seeds turned out to be weeds. And I'm telling you, it wasn't for a lack of watering.

OK, that's enough of my pity party.

The new store is going very well. I really like the people and Danny, the manager is freaking awesome. I listen to him while he is coaching. His verbiage, tone, body language, everything looks like he leaped out of a training video on how to coach employees. It is amazing.

I went to a "Business Symposium" that spry*NT held at Minute Maid park today. Cool vendors, lots of pens, you know how it goes. No sooner did I get back to my side of town Marilee called. She has tickets (the good corporate ones behind home plate) to the baseball game, at you guessed it, Minute Maid park. I go back to work, finish up, hurry home, change into my Bagwell (which I need to replace with Ausmus because he is sooooo much cuter!) tee shirt and head back downtown.

The weather was awesome, the company even better, even though we were getting clobbered. Marilee came and saw the house afterwards and loved it. I do too.

My bedroom is all pink. All shabby chic Target pink. I bought the curtains & bedspread for our guest room, and decided I was taking it. When it comes to home decor, there is no middle with me. It's either dark, antique & classic or light, pink and very girlie.

I started a nine day stretch -- Nine more days until Vegas. Unlike some other things, that will not be a let down.