three phone calls

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Sunday, while waiting in the er, Larrys phone rings. He being a stickler for rules, goes outside to answer it. I can tell from his body language it's one of the girls. He comes back in, I ask who it was? Ashley. "I tell her I am waiting with you at the er and I am not bringing her any lunch"
"What did she say?"
"Oh, I know, I already ate left over fajitas, I was just calling to see how Mom is and to let you know I am about to head over to Chanells"

Wow. It still shocks me when she does something nice like that.

Later after we get home, she calls again, wanting to know if everything was OK. He tells her the story, yes one broken, one bruised, going to be sore. She says OK and was just checking in.

Wow again.

Today she calls me around 12:30. How am I? She went out last night with friends, just got up, am I OK, glad you are being promoted, yadda, yadda, yadda. It's amazing. There is no anger in her voice anymore, there is no hatred in her eyes, she hugs me first, for no reason (when she is home). It is so weird. Don't get me wrong, I don't want it the other way, but when you have lived one way for so long, it is hard to get used to anything else.

Part of me, still stuck in the past thinks she is buttering us up for something. This was always her past behavior. Give just enough for us to think we matter, ask for something, once she got it we were shit again, and even worse if she didn't. The only thing she could be wanting at this point is a car. We will help her get one after boot camp, but not before.

I miss her. I enjoy talking to her now, we are becoming friends after 18 years.

Hannah Banana has been gone since Sunday as well. She and Stephanie went with her parents to Galveston for a few days. It has been very quiet in the old kasa of kimmy. Is this really where I am? It will be three short years and both my babies will be gone, I'm not ready for that at all. I am going to enjoy these next three years, so much better than the last three. I look forward to this new relationship with Ash. It's been a long time coming.