when Jimmy Kimmel is making fun of you, you know it's bad

Last night I told Larry I was going to watch the football game. I told him, "The Colts are undefeated, and the Patriots ..... Aren't"

I do not root for the Patriots. I root for whoever is playing against them. It was a great Monday Night matchup. The Colts are 0-7 at Foxborro and never seemed to be able to get passed them.

Last night, they did. It was a great game.

Half time consist of Tim McGraw's "I like it, I love it" with lyrics and video based on the weekends best plays. Then, you have "60 seconds with Jimmy Kimmel".

Jimmy had a great piece about Pittsburgh coach Bill Cower. How angry he always looks. He had clips of his notoriously angry face superimposed on "Christmas Cards" etc.

His last line? "Don't be so angry Bill, you could be coaching the Houston Texans".

OUCH!

side note***

Thanks for all of your support with the latest drama. After lots of talks with Hannah and Larry, I think we will all get passed this. I have to say, I was a little glad Larry was the 'first responder'. It has opened his eyes, he did not hear about it from me, and thinking that I was 'crazy' or 'overreacting'. (A major part of why I moved out) By the time he called me, he had already taken down the internet and took up her cell phone.

It is important for him to do these things, it is important for Hannah to realize her will ground her when she needs it. It was a big step for all of us.

Hannah can be very convincing, but I do think she is truly sorry, and scared. The reason she did it? Adrenaline. To see if she could get away with it. It wasn't about the money, it was just to do it.

The difference between Hannah and Ashley when they are in trouble (and I've said this before) is Hannah will show emotion, say she's sorry and most times seems to learn from her mistakes. Ashley always took our punishment as "trying to stick it to her" and would NEVER show any emotion as to try and prove to us, "you will not break me". Ashley never understood the 'why's'. Hopefully Hannah does, and it's not all an act.

Stephanie got grounded for a month, she still has her cell phone for "emergencies" and Trish did not tell her Dad. They didn't make it over to the house that night either.

Larry & I have had very good talks since I have been out. I think he realizes I can be a grown up. I can budget my money, I can pay my bills, I can survive without him. I think this has been more of a growing experience for him than it has been for me.

My checks have always gone in his account. I have a pretty good idea of how much he makes, and I know how much I make. I would look at my checks, and go, OK, you should have 'X' amount this week. He would give me my allowance for the week.

If I ran out, or needed more, he would berate me, belittle me, and make me feel like I was small. Now that I have my checks, and really see how much I have, I have told him, you will NOT make me feel guilty for my 'allowance' any longer. And he won't.

Combined we make very good money. He is a VP, yes, I am a lowly retail assistant, but still, we live a good life, and I don't worry about going to the grocery store. We are extremely lucky. He was in the right place at the right time for his job. He excelled and is very smart which helped his growth in that company. They depend on him greatly.

I could be replaced in a day.

We haven't argued over money in years, it was a simple, "and another thing" during the separation. That was largely based on Ashley & I's relationship, or lack thereof, and him all of the sudden deciding he knew what was best. He hasn't parented them in a very long time. I told him at one point, "it would have been easier if I had left you when they were five". He didn't understand the comment, I hope he does now.

So, things are moving along. Hannah seems to understand the magnitude of her actions, and is accepting her punishment. She doesn't like it, and that's understandable. She also knows when I ground, I stick to it. She knows there is no escaping or reprieve.

We all did stupid things, some of us got caught and learned, some of got caught and failed to learn, some escaped ever getting caught and ever learning.

Hopefully she will learn.