no 6th, no bus, no call

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I had left a message for her assistant principal to tell ash I would still pick her up this afternoon as I had to get Hannahs phone as well.

I get to the office. Nope, she didn't come to 6th period. hhmmm. OK. I get Hannahs phone and come home. Maybe she took the bus? Hannah comes in, nope, Ashley didn't ride the bus.

It's 4:00. No phone call. Don't know where she is, I have a good guess though. With Chanell. I call, no answer. I leave a message. No call back.

I know what she will say, "I just need some time to figure out what I am going to do" blah, blah, blah. Here I was trying to find a tutor for her, stupid me. I know nothing. I can't possibly try to help her through this.

Who knows where she is, when she will try to return or if she will give up all together. She told us during her last outing that if she didn't graduate she will kill herself. You don't say things like that to someone who has been through that. I tell her, you do what you want, they are your choices, if that is truly what you are going to do, no one can stop you.

Who's life is this? I am tired of living it myself ...... I can't take anymore excuses, or it's not my faults or comic rationals.