guilty

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I have a very nasty, bad .... habit? Problem? Here's the thing, when things start getting really, really bad, I isolate. Not from everyday things, not from work, not from my immediate family but from my friends and my dad.

The things is, a phone call is made, to me, and not returned, by me. Another message, another missed call. A day, a week. Now it's this "thing" It's there.

My very best friend, Corey has called and called and called. I have not called her back. When Ashley moved back in she sucked all of the air out. It was a very dark airless place. I wanted to call her back, I just never did. I haven't talked to my dad in about 3 months. Same thing. Same way.

She called yesterday, leaves a message. Today, her husband calls Larry. She's done. That's what they do, when I don't answer, they call Larry. Just one more thing he does for me.

UGH, why do I do this?

Some other things I am guilty of (I bet when you read guilty you thought Ashley had done something, right?) I am guilty of driving to two different stores at 10:00 pm looking for tylenol pm because I had let myself get down to only half a pill.

I am guilty of LOVING Jessica and Ashlee Simpson, and Avril and Kelly Clarkson. I love singing along to 'Pieces of Me' and 'With You'

I will really need to call Corey and admit that I am infact, guilty. Whether she accepts it will be another story I am sure.