colorblind

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No more seeing red, no more seeing black, only pink ..... Still so very happy. I told her last night, I will buy your psp today, no she wants her ipod first, done. A deals a deal. Three things she wanted, a psp (portable playstation) an ipod and a laptop. The psp & laptop (which will be this one when she graduates bootcamp and we will buy a new one). Larry surprised me last night when he told me he had gotten a 300 prepaid visa card for her. I asked when he did it, he bought it earlier this month when we thought she could still take math models.

Last night when I was crying on the phone to my Dad, half apologizing for not calling, halfway saying thanks for sticking with me as well he told me how proud he was of Larry and I for sticking with her, doing the tuff love when needed and seeing her through the end whatever that would be. He said so many couples would have laid blame on each other and turned it inwards breaking themselves up in the process. I laughed and told him, Larry & I were always united in our thinking that it was her fault, he laughed. Don't lay blame, just enjoy the moment, they haven't come around very often lately.

I sent out a blast text message to everyone at work last night, they have been through it all with me. Alberto, my tech sent me a reply "You are so funny, a little more time and you will be drama free" I laughed. Techs in the back room have heard every phone call whether it be screaming or crying.

Senior breakfast this morning, we wont see her until tomorrow night. And it is OK. Maybe Larry will grow some of his hair back now LOL

Ashley asked if we were happy --- maybe she isn't as smart as I thought she was -- ummmm YEAH we are happy LOL Tears of joy, tears of release, tears of sorrow.

As much as she has put me through, something inside will ache when she actually leaves. She is my first baby and I have not prepared myself for her actually leaving during preparing myself for her actually failing. Not to worry about that now, just enjoy the moment .... as for swimming, it is just time to lay back and float ......