going to bed

I have to go back to work tomorrow. I'm dreading it. I will ask for a leave of absence. We are on a hiring freeze which means he will not be able to replace me if he gives me the leave, I will still be considered part of the "head count". I will be forced to quit. I can't give two weeks notice, I don't have the luxury of time. I love my job, my crew. They have kept me sane during the last 2 years.

I dread it. However, my boss told me during our last conversation about ash, "do whatever it takes" ..... how words come back to haunt us .....